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Martina Nikolovska
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Choosing to settle in Malaysia

Updated: Apr 13, 2020

For the past five months and maybe even for a longer period of time, many friends, family and people I meet throughout this journey keep asking me two questions.

- "Why did you choose to come here?

- "Why didn't you go back home to do your masters degree in the U.S.?

One year ago, I was mentally struggling with some personal issues, though the majority of my friends and family were not aware of it. At the time, I was living in Skopje, North Macedonia and I was away from my sister and parents for quite awhile. It was very hard for me to maintain a healthy lifestyle due to the fact that I was stressed 24 hours of the day and didn't have a stable sleeping and eating schedule. I went back home to Chicago in January for quiet some time and maybe, only maybe felt a little better. Though I didn't feel whole yet! Yes, I went out with friends to bars and I hung out almost every day, yes, I took little vacation breaks, and yes, I was my happy self on the outside though I was drowning on the inside.

When summer 2018 started, I came to my senses just a tad bit and one day out of nowhere I decided to visit an agency in the city center of Skopje. For those of you living in North Macedonia, the organization is called Educational Advising Center, EAC.

EAC collaborates with many universities away from home therefore I wanted to check my options. I didn't want to study on the Balkans, I didn't want to go back home to the U.S, I wanted to run away as far as possible from what was hurting on the inside and I just wanted to start fresh. Hence, when I saw Malaysia as an option, a safe place, a new culture, a tropical climate surrounded by beautiful islands, I was hooked. I knew that running away from what was inside of me would not be the smartest idea though I did it anyways. I made a deal with my parents, who until this day are my biggest supporters, and 5 months after I moved to Kuala Lumpur. Yes, I am an adventurous woman though my decision of moving to study here consists of 20% being adventurous and 80% running away from my thoughts, literally.

- "Do I regret it?"

Not at all, I do not regret making this decision hence it has made me a stronger person and if I ever could go back in time to change it I wouldn't. I would still choose to come to KL even though sometimes I just wish I was back home with friends and family. I am thankful for all the people who keep in touch with me every single day. I am thankful for my sister and my parents for being my biggest mental health supporters because I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for them.

Moreover, I feel like this running away magic worked because I am doing wonderfully right now. I am happy where I am even though this country pisses me off sometimes (that's for another blog post), assignments are driving me nuts and I cannot wait to go back home for spring break. So see you on April 18th Macedonia. 🛫🇲🇰

Until this day no one truly knows the reason why I chose Malaysia until reading this blog post. Sooo, with this being said, here you go, hope you enjoy reading it since it was really tough for me to open up and write about it. Love each and every single one of you and sorry for not being able to post every Friday as I promised. 💛

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Fridays in Martina's life.

Do you sometimes think you have no idea what you are doing with your life? Neither do I, but we can go through it together! 

FML serves as my little personal bubble to project what inspires me in life and maybe you can relate.

The idea is to write a blog post every Friday about my life in general, whether it's travel diaries, beauty products, recipes, how to's, etc. It is not theme based, it will be basically everything that makes me ME 💁🏻

A little taste of your own medicine. 


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